Saturday, January 29, 2011

Being Strong

The past couple days have been harder not for Savannah and Addie but for me. I woke up yesterday morning and all I could think was that Olivia is gone and she's not coming home. I miss her so much my heart aches. It feels like theres been a whole punch in my chest and everytime I think about her it seems to get bigger. I know I'm suppose to be strong and hold it together for Savannah, Addie and Gabe but I can't anymore I'm done being strong.

7 comments:

  1. You don't need to be strong the entire time... Just go ahead and cry. You'll feel so much better... without grief there is no way to even pretend to go on. Savannah and Addie will be fine, there's no way to hide feelings from babies no matter how hard you try! If you cry it out you'll feel so much better I promise

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  2. You can't be strong all the time. You need to grieve. Taking care of yourself and grieving your loss is important to taking care of your family. (((HUGS)))

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  3. Let yourself grieve. You miss your baby and some days it is going to be hard to even get out of bed, and that is ok! You need to take care of you to be able to take care of them.

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  4. Sometimes there is more strength in letting it out than in keeping it in. We fool ourselves into thinking that being strong is not showing our emotions and pretending that everything is ok. You have experienced something no mom should ever experience. First, the sudden, early birth of your babies and then the loss of one of those beautiful babies.

    You need to let it out. In whatever way you can. (((hugs)))

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  5. Have you checked out a book called the Preemie Primer. This woman was and OB and lost one of her twins. You may want to pick it up and read it. It is a great book and may help you a little with your grief. We are praying for you.

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  6. Been thinking about you and waiting for an update, hope all is well for your lil miracles.

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  7. This is a fake blog! She is a fourteen year old girl PRETENDING to have triplets and making a fool of those who have lost a baby!

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